Hello a short entry:

Today was all about

Breakfast at Breeks Vantage Point Vivo (fucking awesome movie, I've to say) Hot White Chocolate messed up nachos monorail to Sentosa 'ski-lifts' the Luge (yet another fantastic thing you should try) FAT FINGERS walking Siloso Beach some bike trails cable car to Mount Faber killer hairpin corners toilets with a great view (disturbing really) church with Denmark flag the 'hot' nut great deal of walking.


Ah tired tomorrow is school don't know if I'm really looking forward to it my mind's in holiday mood shut down already and I don't see much ways to start it up back again -.-



Hey hey, I saved the world today
Everybody's happy now
the bad thing's gone away.
Everybody's happy now
the good thing's here to stay.

Please let it stay.

ofblack&white
8:37 PM

Today was the annual majlis Haflah and this time it was held at the Sultan Mosque's auditorium. How grand! It was great, meeting up with the usual people and all that shrieking of "OHMYGODD I MISS YOU!" and the customary hugs hugs hugs and kisses kisses kisses. It was fun. Worrying about the 4 black-and-yellow umbrellas, the bus-that-never-came, the rain, what-am-I-suppose-to-do situations, WHY-DID-SHE-GIVE-WRONG-INSTRUCTIONS screams, lol! Oh and the hustle for the ice-cream which had all but melt. Nadz was so much love how I so love bullying her la. Nush Shaz Haz Syirah Farahyn (screams!) Nini abit of Roslyn here and there Aqilah Ameera that gossip gossip gang (oh Shaz you belong there too ;p) and Farah Alsagoff was there also. Did I tell you she's hot? Her brother's smouldering. Sad he's 16 -.- Then there's Aisyah who appeared in front of me suddenly (HA HA). My heroes for the day were Suhaimi (for taking ALL the blame for things or mess ups lol!) and Zul for finding the fourth missing umbrella!

After that I went off early due to those aching aching feet, and we had food from the dessert shop again. And mochi ice-cream! The poor guy ended up last for his time trial (pats his back). This was all due to the nasi ayams desserts yong tau fu mochi ice-creams connettos chocolates thosais and the junk we eat. Seriously eating seemed to be our burning passion.


On Friday I miraculously went and stayed on for Math 2 lectures. How painful! But enlightening as well, doing differential equations and two-order differentials. I was so drained that I need food to cheer me up hence we ate at Bagus.
How to lose weight like this? Further more the customary brownies are a calorie-adder too. Sigh. So long I'm happy that's what counts, no?
And so we went to walk and walk and walk and walk...
to Mydin. I didn't know it's even POSSIBLE to walk that distance (okay it wasn't far but for most cases I'm lazy).

It was so fun teaching Vincent again he paintedhis whole house blue. And his desk was cleaner. How great lol.


I need to sleep early feel so tired out after the running about busying the whole day through.
Great day, great day (:

ofblack&white
8:09 PM

Yesterday I went to the BodyShop warehouse sale and ohmygod half of the world was there. The queue would reach China and all that yaya. Ilyana was the typical Singaporean shopper ('OMG li-chan I have to see EVERYTHING') and pushed and dug her way inside while I merrily stand away from the crazy crowds. We queued for almost an hour.

We had nice lunch and OH there's a new drink on the Starbucks menu, White Hot Chocolate (or hot white chocolate I don't know the sequence) with whipped cream. It taste so good!


I had tuitions yesterday only reached home about 11? Wow I'm out from 11 to 11. Haha it's those 12-hour days again. While teaching Fifa, Adela popped by after doing her hair and colouring it (what colour?? Doesn't make much difference really). Chatted and sat by until I ended my tuition. Then Kat appeared out of the blue. Anyway, finally got the shoes from Pei En it came in yesterday I think, how great! Can give it to Fariha already.

Tuesday, also went teaching after lessons. It's getting harder to juggle them already. Lol.



Oh Wednesday I had my dinner with him at some Ayam Penyet shop, and Ilyana(with Ashraf) appeared at the doorway. Wtf she should keep all that love comments to herself. He's not quite himself that day had an extra dose of flirt and craziness, weird. He brought me to what we call 'Gotham Building' and he showed me all the historical figures. It was a great evening (: He sent me home and oh I got my green crumpler back and the smell is delish LOL (he didn't wash it hence there's his scent ooooh~).


I don't know to drop by for the girl's camp or not. A bit lazy a bit shy a lot curious to see how the juniors are doing. Ah we'll see how.


I was moaning about how I can't sleep on Wednesday, asking Kat to paint 1000 sheep on my ceiling so I can sleep. Yesterday, a sheep fell from the ceiling and I was so knocked out asleep.

My favourite mistress is cooking me lunch on Monday hurrah! Let's think of what to eat and pass her the recipe and I'll be merry (:

ofblack&white
10:43 AM

Hello love.
If you have held on to me longer, maybe I'd be tripping over wires that aren't there, falling into pits that are oblivious, and flying to heaven with no wings. Oops sweetheart I'm on to someone new. You. Perhaps perhaps.


Messy, messy.
It's a good day people. I did my chores and it made me happy because I've accomplished something. It goes to show how pathetic I am nowadays that even completing drabby chores make me feel good. Ah.

Headed down to Bugis on the train that goes fast but not fast enough to ensure I wasn't late. Which, come to think of it, is my fault because I always overestimated Time. Tardiness seemed to be my partner of late. I bought some test papers for students that cost me quite a bomb, and then I had my looooong-awaited food. That's quite blissful. I am so in love with sushi. Teaching really saps my patience, teaching annoying lower-secondary students who doesn't know how to NOT be irritating. Gah.


On a brighter note I bought Apple Blossom Shower Gel (no thanks to the oodles of goading from Pei En -.-) I smell so apple-ish, as compared to my previous Strawberry. Lol. I love fruitty smells. It makes me feel... hungry.


To save money. Sigh. I have so many wants, yet again. The century-old lament.

ofblack&white
10:03 PM

I must be bored to be typing in an entry twice in a day.

Anyway I did say I was at Sofitel yesterday? Guess who was there? None other than Abdul Matin Rashid. That skank was at the same place 90 something kilometres away from Singapore. God such a coincidence I was so glad I didn't bump into him or anything it might spoil the weekend for me (if he's in that oh-so-bitchy mode that he ALWAYS is in).


Tomorrow is out with Pei En dearest she's treating me (hence the addition of 'dearest', you gotta pay for sweet words from me k)! Haha I cannot wait. Oh I need to touch on this issue about space. Some people really don't know when to back off. He messages me like 5 times a day and I'm the type who doesn't like to be smothered unless I REALLY like the person. But well, you know me and men/guys, I'm not overly friendly with them if the word EGO was stamped across their forehead (which is like 99% of them). And now when I meet someone without that ego, that rare 1%, he has to be cramping my style. Tell me why I shouldn't be bi.
Sheesh.


Oh Vincent just messaged me and YES I'll be teaching him Economics starting next Saturday. Besides the income, he's loads of fun to teach (plus I love annoying him by singing and singing and singing). I got so many new songs to sing to him now, BeeGees, N'Sync, OLDIES that he can't stand. Ho boy, he's gonna get pawned.


Maybe I don't wanna know the reason why.

ofblack&white
9:40 PM

AH. Here's where I scream for the bed. But then again I have to be out to Johor again for some visiting of family friends. Bleargh the past three days had really been busy.

Yesterday we had a family informal gathering at Sofitel, Senai and I brought Naz along. The place seemed nice enough despite the pouring rain. At first we went to my grandmother's room and it's only two adjoined rooms with about ten people or lesser inside? I thought it was just my dad's sibling but until we reached the dinner area, which faces a beautiful-but-most-environmentally-unfriendly golf course, all of them start pouring in, like termites out of the woodwork. An estimation of the number would be about 40 of them? Anyway the food was nice, love the black pepper mussels. They had a live two-piece, just the singer and the keyboardist. Uncle Man went up to sing and soon it turned into some sort of karaoke session, only with backup singers, real music instead of the usual playback, and of course, the stage. Haha as usual they turned pretty wild and started dancing, taking photos (my paternal family are born camwhores, hence I turned this way), cat-calling, jeering at whoever was singing, and all the things imaginable. I can't quite imagine how they'd turn out if they drink (I'm so glad they don't?). Haha here I was expecting a nice quiet dinner (fat hope, we're never quiet wherever we go) and maybe a civilised game of bowling. It was quite squeezy on the way home since Khairi sat in the car as well. Didn't matter to me though, so long I get my sleep, even if it's on Naz's.


I'm not really looking forward for the next few weeks, guess I'll be frantic with exam fever (it hasn't hit me yet and I'm fucking worried because it's coming in 2 months time, heck only a month and few days time). Plus their mid-years and everything. AH June please come faster.

ofblack&white
1:31 PM

Poof! It had been two very draining and exhausting days. Cik Wahab came with his family (total of 7) and we went all places in Singapore.

Yesterday was the zoo but I couldn't follow due to tuition and sorts. Met Pei En (I MISS HER) for the Birks and chatted a lot. Seemed that she has acquired sarcasm at a whole new level. Then went Dhoby to meet Denise for a while. Ah then I had tuition with Halima. I gave her the silent treatment because she didn't do homework and by the time tuition was ending she was begging for homework. Love it when my methods work. Then I went to Atikah's place and lo behold I saw this all-familiar Honda Jazz which belonged to the Liu family. So to confirmed I messaged Zhong and yes my student is her neighbour. Next door neightbour I think. What a coincidence! Went to Chai Chee Seafood for dinner and after we went to One Fullerton for nice pretty nightsights. Only reached home at one-ish.

Today was hectic. Okay beyond hectic. Went to the Science Centre, home for lunch. Then took a train all the way to Vivo and to Sentosa. Ah tiring but fun! Had ice-cream at Earle's. Amongst the 11 of us, we had 3 Earthquakes. Only reached home at 11. So now you see, sleep is beckoning. Oh ya Cik Wahab's kids have the nicest names. Sakinah (okay this is normal), Anis Tasnim (wow at the Tasnim, it's a damn nice name), Ainon something something, the other brother I momentarily forgot his name and my favourite name; UKASYAH. Wow awesome name.


Now it's 0125am. Not asleep and I don't see if I will be asleep anytime soon, seeing that I have a rare nice convo with Matin. Theorising about our dear friend Qistina and laments on love heartbroken bullshit education and all the nonsense that comes out. Haha I kinda miss him, no?
Oh yes, I had a surreal dream in the morning. Along the lines of the skanky things Matin does (with unknown girls at clubs).


Ah, back to conversations and eyebags that could hold a reservoir.

ofblack&white
11:59 PM

HELLO. I am happy since I've got the sleep I crave for. Wait, keyword is uninterrupted-by-crazy-dreams sleep ((:


On Monday Adela the Hun dragged me to CityHall for her SMU admin stuff and she being stubborn refuse to listen to my advice to photocopy her documents at Bras Basah and insist that SMU being a school have a photocopying machine. So of course sensical me was right so we had to detour to Bras Basah. Oh lunch was interestingly at Hotel Rendevouz. Nasi Padang (field rice lol). Had a tuition session then went supper.

Tuesday was... school, back home, jog jog jog and tuition with Atikah. She's quite a lot of laughs really. Cycle to grandma's for the food and stayed home. Slept so early I was in awe the next morning when I woke up.


Today! Had Economics intensive revision for 3 hours with half hour interval. It was torturous, oh Lord it was so painful. Luckily I enjoyed myself before I went for torture lecture. I met Farn my sweetheart before school for usual lunch of fish soup noodle with milk, caught up for a while and HUGS as my bus arrived to deliver me to hell. Sigh.
Oh Reena had been bugging me to meet her and today I finally did. At Toa Payoh. Imagine the ride home! MAN. So I had suspected that she's working in an MLM (multi-level marketing) and guess what, I'm right!
So of course being polite I listened to the garbage I had been fed more than once. Her senior was doing the talking but I have a feeling this was a more established and better-earning company than VE (this one called EmMax) because her senior was wearing highly expensive looking shoes and oh a Mont Blanc was dangling his front pocket. I didn't buy all that obviously but my head bobbed up and down as if on autopilot mode. It's great to see Reena again though, as pretty as ever (: So as usual HUGS before I went on the long journey to the Dark Side (as Adela cheerfully labeled the east side).


Tired. Sleep now!

ofblack&white
10:42 PM

Yesterday night (rather, morning) was by far the scariest episode I've had in 19 years.

So I couldn't fall asleep. After meeting him for tea and supper nearby I made a decision to keep fit healthy and sleep early. I tried to turn in at 2330. I tossed and turned and tossed and turned... til 0330. I didn't sleep on my bed, but the pullout one.


I was in the pool swimming away when a huge bug (don't ask me WHY a bug) bit my thigh and I felt that stinging poison. Oh and I wilt away to die and horror of horrors I had an image of hell for a moment. Fucking scary.

Then I woke up. I was shaky and went to the toilet to wash my face and maybe do some repentance thing when I saw my brother with a knife as I exit the toilet. A small knife but sharp as anything. I felt it digging in between my left middle and ring finger. It hurts. And what's more painful and fear-inducing was the look in his eyes. It was fucking evil I swear it'll make Darth Vader and Saruman look cute.

Then I woke up before he stabs me. I heard the door open and ran to my mum unable to speak due to that all-consuming fear. And I felt him coming up behind me and my mum to drive that knife in both of us. Strangely, the area between my left middle and ring finger was bleeding and hurting.

And THEN I properly woke up. I knew I was panting like a bulldog-after-it-ran-2.4 and instinctively I looked to my left hand and felt a small pain between my middle and ring finger. I was shaking like nobody's business and I saw it was only 0450. My heart drummed so hard against my ribcage it hurts and for the first time I was scared witless. I was too scared to sleep, too afraid to be awake, I feared my brother and even the dark, I was afraid to look behind my shoulder. My back tingled as if bracing itself. I just couldn't move. Man I couldn't sleep until now. It felt so real, you know. I never felt such... fear inside me it felt so urgent. For a moment I wished I wasn't alone in bed.


Ah I'm just back from a run it felt so weird having to run after not running for SO long.

ofblack&white
1:15 PM

So much for worrying I wouldn't have enough students for this year.

Currently, I have 7 students. I'm teaching them a subject each. Fine and dandy. Until on Friday Vincent text me saying he is taking H1 Math and H2 Economics, enquired how much I'll be charging, and said I'll hear from him real soon (meaning I'm going to teach him both subjects). Making him student number 8 and 9. The next day, Kwek Pei En IMed me on messenger saying she'll be taking Math in her Diploma course by UOL I think. And requested me to teach her Math. I couldn't possibly turn Vincent and Pei En down they're my bundle of joy (in other words I have taught them before and have a certain niggling sense of loyalty towards them).
Today Sya asked me if I could tutor her and her twin H2 Math since they're retaking it. They'll be student number 11 and 12, if I were to take them. But being sensible (I can't do that biting more than I can chew thing) I referred them to Kak Ayu, the original Witch From the East (she IS scary). Man imagine the amount of income I could be getting if I were to take both of them too.
But I got studies and I couldn't neglect it.


I've been trying to tackle Math 1 today and seriously it's quite tough. I'm doing past year papers. Now it's ringing the alarm that I should be scared because exams are in 2 months time (lesser actually).
(Insert very loud wail)


Yesterday I went out with dad for lunch, bit of shopping, and desserts at Swensen's before heading off to City Hall to meet the three of them. We played Scroggle (the fusion of boggle and scrabble) and it's surprisingly fun. Oh Adela and Ish came by and such joy to see Ish again after such a long time! Hugs and words exchanged and I really hope I could meet her again to catch up (Adela text me often enough to be my girlfriend -.- so no catching up needed). And Mun! When CAN I meet you our schedule clashed so often it annoys me.


Qis is busy with her application so I can only meet her the week after. Fana will be next! Haha Teo Qingrui asked me out just now but I was too lazy to move. And anyway I didn't know he moved to opposite Siglap centre! So near to mine and HOW I ENVY THAT GUY. Siglap area has a lot of good food. -.- I'll probably meet him Tuesday for some pool and lunch again ((:


I had quite a lazy day today, sleeping and staying home doing Math. Went down to pass him some food lol the poor man and sat down and chit chat while we eat. Thank God my mum was busy with the Nintendo to bother why I was away for an hour at the void deck.


AH Math can be a pain in the ass when it chose to be.

ofblack&white
10:03 PM

Hellooooooo it is the week of 10/03/08 (no significance but maybe it's a different way to start an entry). It had been a very wet and soggy week. On Monday I went to school to study (Math 2, yay!) and ate mee soto which was nearby. It's good. Another incentive to go to school. After that I went to meet the mothership, Fariha and Raqeeb at KFC for an early and we all went shopping at Sheng Siong. It was a nice time spent.

Tuesday I headed down to school again, to kill Stats 2. It was quite productive and I just got to realise I have pages and pages of statistical tables to read and oh the horror. Sigh. Aisha really got me studying like nobody's business. It's scary seeing her being so smart when I know nuts about it. Bleah. Oh I tried the tuna-in-a-can from her country and yea it's so much better than ayam brand and such.

Wednesday was? Tuition then slept my way through. I slept at very odd hours of the day. Like 3-5 and only waking up at 830. Crazy crazy days. I have yet to meet Qis, Yats, Fana, Adela and Mun. Appointments with very much loved people but haven't the time to. Man ):

Thursday was fun. Naz and I went to Science Centre and ice-skating at Jurong East aka the other end of the world. I've always loved the Science Centre and I still do. Had some changes with new exhibitions and such. Ice-skating was hilarious (seeing her fall like gazillion times) and I didn't fall! Lol.

Today I went ice-skating again, this time at Kallang. Was suppose to be in school studying but the study partner couldn't sleep the night before for unknown reasons and hence canceled it. Oh well. It annoys me that I slept like 2 last night and the body clock was set at 830. I was disgusted that I couldn't sleep back. Oh Cik Simah fetched me Naz and Fatin with Halim and Halima and poof! To Kallang. God, it brought back alot of memeories.


Tomorrow Syahril wants to meet. As usual, the annoying freak of the nation couldn't confirm a time and place fast. He's so last minute all the time I want to shake him. I don't like last-minute plans. If he doesn't get back asap I'll head off with Ish and Adela.


I'm so tired. I haven't seen him for a week and it feels kind of weird not to. Besides that, I have issues to settle. Curbing a growing addiction, settling with the feelings and the yaya papaya. I'm so glad for God's creation of Qis to hear me moan at 2 in the morning.


Ever since I came to meet her I prayed everyday that God would make me forget her.
Guess what, I still haven't.
Major sigh.

To lighten up I looked up in the sky I saw The Hunter (or also known as Orion) and other little diamonds in the sky. So nice! I was excited at the sight of the stars it's quite a rare sight in Singapore.

I'm so brokeback mountain too. Sheesh.

ofblack&white
9:48 PM

Today was the futsal tournament at Tampines Safra and boy was it tiring in this oh-so-hot weather. I sat under the sun most of the time with Lynn Tan so I'm feeling rather like fish baked rice. We didn't qualify and actually, thank goodness for that! The finals are to be held next Sunday and could I even sneak out to play soccer on Sundays? Tough luck.

Oh yea the Adidas jersey is nice, red and white. If only it was Nike...


Such a warm weather. I really wanna sleep. My left thigh had been cramping like nobody's business and it really annoys me.
Ah blistery weather...

ofblack&white
4:11 PM

We are three friends with different capabilities. Qistina and Matin have been always better academically; they're in the C and B classes in sec 1 and 2, whereas I am in E. They took higher Malay I think, yes. And have been scoring better. They got 12 and 10 points for O levels respectively, and that is the score without the CCA points taken to consideration. Of course they went to better institutions and such.

Qis retained a year, and Mat barely scraped through his promotionals. I cleared, but with the mentality that SR set their papers easy that's why I managed.

A Levels came and went for the three of us. It's a huge wonder how Mat, being in the better JC (SA) did the worse, Qis, who is in a good JC (MJ) did worse than me but marginally better than Mat, and how I could top them.
But I'm sad for Qis because she really studied hard for it. Ah.
I really hope she'll cheer up ):



What lesson can one gain from here? Just because you're in a better institution doesn't mean you could be better, and just because you're in a lower institution doesn't mean you have no chance against the others. With effort, one can overcome obstacles and defy the odds.
It's a tough lesson, but a good one all the same.

ofblack&white
5:19 PM

I had been secretly playing soccer with Faith, Grace, Rod and Ayam on Monday and Wednesday nights for this Saturday's tournament. I am feeling rather guilty because parentals say no to soccer but I kept on playing, and conscience is playing a dirty trick on me.

I studied Stats on Monday and it was rather draining. Reached home only at 2230 hours after soccer, teaching Fifa and studying. Oh ya I met Yana for lunch and walk and walk and dessert shop love and walk to some printing place of hers. And before I forget when we played street at Yishun there's still very petite but colourful (in the language sense) girl who outran and outplayed the five of us. So embarrassing can! She's only 13 for heaven's sake.

Tuesday was all about staying home. It was fun while it lasted. Finally met the new student Atiqah. Was supposed to meet Mun but my dad had to be in town so I couldn't. Sorry Mun! ):

Wednesday was spent in Pasir Ris. Since 1300 till 1900. Teaching, reading books, playing soccer and all. Finally tried 1901 hotdogs. I bought him a large coney and we sat happily ever after at Eunos MRT munching on it and headed for chicken rice! Don't we love food.


Today I went to watch 10,000 BC with Hamz. It was a GREAT show. Awesome sound effects, great cast (in the hotness scale, they rank 8). The female lead who plays Evolet, is so ohmygod-beyondbelief HOT. Maybe I should show you...



There. That's Camilla Belle. Sexy isn't she? Maaaannn.


But overall, it's a worth it movie. The lead actor Steven Strait is also not bad. Haha. Oh ya we hit IT show after our lunch at Breeks (it's on him and those vouchers). There were a few things that caught my eye. But I'm going there tomorrow with dad a.k.a banker hopefully he'll give in to his youngest child's request (which I highly doubt so, after the amount of dough I squeezed off him for the computer etc etc etc) BUT I shall try my luck.


I'm tired, my blisters aren't helping at all.

ofblack&white
6:21 PM